I Need to Study

I Need to Study

I need to study
there might be a pop quiz around the corner
I study your eyes
so that I can capture their wonder
I study your nose
so that I can memorize the lines
I study your lips
so that when you get so inclined
to be kissed... I won't miss it


Hmm... that didn't turn out the way I was planning it in my head. Oh well. I'll write that one some other day. The inspiration for this "thing" today is due to my desire to want to draw lately. For some odd reason, I feel like I should be able to draw my future girl. I don't mean that I should be able to draw her now because I don't know who she is yet, but that I should be able to draw her.
It's a very common theme in movies and tv shows. The guy makes some grand romantic gesture by drawing the girl in all her splendor and they end up together. I think there's something really fantastic (as in fantasy) about being able to draw your girl. One thing that I'm learning as I read about drawing and such is that to be able to draw something well, you really need to understand it. You need to know what it would look like rotated. You need to understand how it would look when light hits it from a certain angle. I think that really translates well when it comes to drawing your girl. It means that you know her. That you know every feature about her. You understand all the spatial relationships of her face and body... and maybe that means you know her mind and soul as well. I dunno.

40 days in a row! yay for me.

Apologies

Apologies

Hey dude, sorry man
Didn't think he would do that
My apologies


Oops. Some of my photoshop work has been released to the masses. I didn't think that would happen. I thought it would stay inside the circle.

Conditional Statements

Conditional Statements

If I changed...
If I could have looked you in the eye for just 2 seconds longer
If I was taller... or older maybe...
If I knew what your eyes were trying to tell me
If I remembered every word you said to me...
If I could figure out why you were crying
If I could make you stop wishing that you were dying...
then what?
I wish I knew...
so I could stop wondering.


I don't really know what that was about. I just started writing something as I listened to some girl cover Snow Patrol's Chasing Cars on Youtube.

Greatest Hits (2)

Greatest Hits (2)

We've seen each other for 12 days straight
who knew that two years later my heart would break
But back then we were both unawares
As both of us walked down a flight of stairs
You slow for a moment and let me through
so that I could go ahead and open the door for you


Lame. I know. Greatest hits 2. It's pretty pathetic about what I would call the great moments of my life. Oh well. Such is me.

Dota 6.50

Dota 6.50

There is a new map
So many changes were made
Where should I begin?


Lolz. I just wrote a haiku about Dota (a warcraft 3 custom map). That's totally sad.

My Left Eye

My Left Eye

My left eye twitches
It does as it wishes
sleep does not stop it
I give up, I forfeit


My left eye has been twitching for a while. I don't think I'm getting enough sleep and I think I'm reading more than my eyes are ready to handle. Oh well. I just wanted to get something fast out today. I can't believe I've written over 30 pieces of junk already this year.

Greatest Hits (1)

Greatest Hits (1)

1 trip under taken
traveling out to see you
2 days journey
grain, hills, mountains, you
3 am on a thursday morning
once upon a summer
4 hours until you leave
what a total bummer
5 minutes of hesitation
wondering what should be my next step
6 seconds of great joy
as I cover you with a blanket as you slept
7 am rolls along
you awake and I pretend I'm sleeping
8 o'clock-- you're gone
and so begins my weeping


Lol. I totally didn't know what I was gonna write about today. I wanted to do something like Charlie's greatest hits on Lost season 3 and have a series of poems where I write about great moments in my life (of course... with a little extra colour), but I didn't really know what I was doing. Oh well. It was fun to write. I love how I rhymed "you" with "you" and "summer" with "bummer". I'm awesome.

The Giants

The Giants

The underdogs today
fighting against perfection
Giants: champions


Go giants. They won the super bowl a few minutes ago. I can't wait to see Brady crying in a corner.

Bus Games

Bus Games

Let the games begin
first to find my victim
there she is
the one in the blue and white jacket
now to make some eye contact
bingo
look away!
look away!!
pretend as though you don't have the social courage
let some more time go by
act as though you can't take your eyes off of her
but only when she's not looking at you
remember to smile before adverting your eyes
make sure you convince her that she is the hottest girl on the bus
get off the bus knowing that you either creeped her out
or made her day


Bus games are fun. Sometimes when I'm too tired to read or don't have a book on me, it's fun to play bus games. It's kinda sad but I know other people who play these games too. Sometimes, I'll purposely stare at people who are not on the bus... you know, make them feel very uncomfortable for no reason. What are they gonna do? Come on the bus and confront you? Yeah, right. The game I'm referring to in the poem is a little different but just as fun.

My Birthday Wishes

My Birthday Wishes

My mind is busy as it composes imaginary letters to you
letters to wish you a happy birthday
they are beautifully worded
I write imaginary letters to you everyday
letters that confess how much you mean to me
hoping that you know I exist
and hoping that you remember people that you don't see


Lolz. I like how these things kinda just write themselves. I know the imaginary letter idea is cliche but I was reminded of it in Slaughterhouse Five today. I just finished that book today. It was interesting. Of course, being a "great" book, it was war related... or more anti-war related but it also involved some time traveling which was a win for me.

Anyways, I watched Stardust yesterday. I loved it. Anyone who has seen that movie and knows anything about me would know right away that I would love that movie. The writer describes it as a fairy tale for adults. I wish I could read more fairy tales. I wish I was her fairy tale. Lol, there I go again.